I Thought I Saw You Yesterday
The
following piece was written last year, as a way of dealing with the passing of
a friend of mine. At the time that I
wrote it, I had a note that said:
"Mark,
I'm hoping that this piece will give me the closure I need to finally say
"Good-bye" to
Although
I still think about him and there are moments that I refuse to believe that he
is TRULY gone, (I guess because I didn’t know and wasn’t able to pay my
respects), I can think of him, without crying, although the ache is still
present.
I
thought I saw you yesterday
Reached
out and touched
The
presence of what
I
thought was you
The
actions I saw
Were
all you
The
voice I heard
Belonged
to you too
It
was as if
I
was transported
Back
in time
And
you and I
Were
standing
Face
to face
Again
Although
the words
Were
not yours
Although
the voice belonged
To
someone else
They
had the same effect
On
me
Caused
me to
Lose
my mind
And
envision
That
you were really
Still
here
Talking
to me
Making
me smile
And
the thought
As
false as it was
Caused
my soul
To
smile
I
spent seconds…
Minutes…
Hours…
Caught
up
In
the rapture
Of
you
Or
at least
The
one
My
spirit
Felt
Was
you
And
started to reminisce
On
all the things we used to do
The
conversations we had
The
moments we shared
Intimate
and otherwise
And
I started to long
For
those moments
Once
again
And
that longing
Caused
me
To
reach out
And
embrace
The
you I saw
Hoping
Wishing
Dreaming
Praying
That
it would bring you back
To
me
If
only for a minute
I
awoke this morning
And
realized
That
it was just my
imagination
Running
away from me
My
mind
It
was
Playing
tricks on me
And
it hit me – yet again
That
you were gone
Too
soon
It
hit me – yet again
I
never
Got
the chance
To
hear your side
It
hit me – yet again
That
you would never
Get
the chance
To
know
To
fully understand
Completely
comprehend
Just
how much
I
loved you
And
in that moment
It
hit me – yet again
How
much
It
hurts
To
know
That
you’re gone
And
I never
Got
a chance
To
say
Good-bye
And
now
I
never will.
©
May 4, 2014 (edited May 5, 2014)
Dejanique,
"The Coco Poetess"