Pieces of Me

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Ode to My Hair

This poem and picture are NOT my work. I found it via Black Women Art and as a Naturalista, wanted to share.

“Ode to my Hair”

by Randolph Williams

I hated you You treated me wrong

You stole my confidence I couldn’t be strong

Dealing with you was my daily curse

Like a battle scene I was forced to rehearse

What’s wrong with you? Why can’t you act right?

I’m done with the struggle I’m too tired to fight.

Everyone says that I should be content

But they just don’t know how much time I’ve spent

Trying to make this thing work, it’s been my best years

And still all I have are frustration and tears…

I’m starting to think this just isn’t to be

Perhaps the best thing

Is to let you go free

I don’t want to admit the things I’ve put you through

I can’t say I’ve ever just let you be you

Please don’t betray me, I’m very afraid

Of what others will think; that my status will fade

I’ll surrender my ways and give you the wheel

What our future holds, I must let time reveal

I’m seeing a change, my fears were all wrong

And I’m changing too; I don’t have to belong!

Now I can’t believe I mistreated you so

All I needed to do

Was just let you go

So you be yourself, and I’ll be me

And we’ll both be happy; we are finally free…

I learned an invaluable lesson today...one that you think I would have "known", but it just didn't dawn on me. At no point in time did YAH say that following Him...serving Him...being obedient to Him meant that the walk, the journey, the road, would be easy; that there weren't going to be some bumps and curves ni the road and that it was going to be paved with sweet smelling flowers and pixie dust!

Just because He said "GO" or "DO IT", doesn't mean that everything is goingto be perfect going forward. We are human, living in a fallible world, while serving an infallible Creator. The key is to be OBEDIENT to His will and what He directs us/you/me to do and allow Him to work everything else out!

As he used Val and Nette, (two of my closest Sista-Queens) to remind me, no matter what it LOOKS like, HE works it out ALL for HIS good and HIS glory.

So, with that said, no longer will I allow the enemy to cause me to believe that I did not hear my Father speak - just because it's not "Pretty in Pink". He said what He said...He'll DO what He said He would DO and I just need to trust, believe, have faith, and get out of His way (He don't need my help!)

(I shared this because I KNOW I'm not the only one who needed it...plus, I was told to!)

Delayed Does Not Mean Denied

Depressed (You Think?)

*Note From Dejanique* Re-reading this, I can tell that when I first wrote this, I was at a very dark place in my life and my poetry was my only SAFE outlet. I thank YAH for finally showing me a different way to look at life....

My life is shit and I wish I could end it

But I’m too much of a ‘pussy’

To just do it

Too scared

Of what I’ll meet

On the other side

I stay here

And wonder

What I can do

To lessen the pain

The hurt

The confusion

I swear

I take

Ten steps back

For every one I take

To move forward

When it seems

That

I’m making a difference

There’s a chance

For the better

I find myself

Stumbling

All over again

I want to just stop

Stop and say

“Forget It!”

Start drinking

Start drugging

Do something to numb

The pain

The hurt

The confusion

But instead

I sit

Day in

Day out

And

Prepare myself

To die

Die

A slow death

A death

Full of

Pain

Hurt

And unfortunately

Confusion

Depression – such a pain in the ass!

©July 2006

Dejanique - The Coco Poetess

Pieces of Me

Nothing Else to Say

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Ode to My Hair

An Invaluable Lesson

Delayed Does Not Mean Denied

Depressed (You Think?)

Happy Birthday to Me!